It’s rare I ever chose to be serious.
At least here, on this blog thing.
This blog thing started a few years ago as something like maybe a hobby. I’ve never liked to write and my high school English teacher, Mr. Atmar, would literally croak if he thought for one minute I put words on paper for people to read.
(He used to tell me his eyes would burn when he had to read some essay or story I had to write in his class.)
(I always enjoyed him and he did me. He always pushed me to strive for me.)
My grammar is horrible. And I’m fairly sure God and Mr. Atmar are probably the only ones who know what a dangling marsupial is.
(No, wait. It’s participle, isn’t it? A dangling participle. Yeah.)
So, one day I thought I’d try to do a blog thing then found myself liking it. Then found myself liking other blogs I would read. Then found myself liking the blog writers of the other blogs I read. Then found myself liking my readers. Then found myself feeling like I actually knew my blog readers better than the people I know in real life.
Then when I did a Facebook page for my blog, I found I actually love chatting with my “likers” on it.
(Yes. I said love. And maybe I throw that word around too much. But really, can love seriously be thrown around too much these days??)
My blog and you, have somewhat become a therapy for me. Thank you for no copay.
So many other blog writers bare their souls. They open their soul for the world to pick apart. I haven’t always been that brave. But well, today I’m kinda being a little brave.
So just bear with me on this one.
I get tired. Of everything.
I get tired of the news. I get tired of the finger-pointing. I get tired of the blame.
I get tired of doing the right thing only to feel it’s never enough.
I get tired of working then wondering what I’m working for.
I get tired of expectations. I get tired of disappointments.
I get tired of offering a smile to a face that turns away.
I get tired of those who always believe they know a better way to do it.
I get tired of politics. I get tired of religion.
I get tired of Democrats who bash Republicans.
I get tired of Republicans who bash Democrats.
I get tired of gays bashing straights.
I get tired of straights bashing gays.
I get tired of seeing the taxes on my paycheck skyrocket after I’ve worked so hard all week.
I get tired of seeing the taxes on my paycheck go to those with no ambition or desire to work.
I get tired of being held accountable when the reward is to only be held more accountable.
I get tired of those who are held unaccountable when the reward is to only be held even less accountable.
I get tired of those who are forgiven but refuse to forgive.
I get tired of those who never take responsibility then bitch about how things are done.
I get tired of those who take on too much responsibility then bitch about having to do everything.
I get tired.
And if you think for one minute I’m not looking in the mirror on most of this, you’re only kidding yourself.
I do my best to be kind to everyone who crosses my path. But everyday it gets harder and harder. I’m gonna keep on keeping on though.
Why? I keep telling myself, the one person I choose to be unkind to, may be the one person who needed my kindness the most.
And I’ll never know.
This world has taken on an “it’s ONLY about me” mentality and a “Fuck you if you don’t believe as I do” attitude.
And I’m going to do my best to just bitch about it, instead of joining it.